Lady Catherine's Insults

Today has brought in shocking events. Lady Catherine came unexpectedly to house, and her visit was not welcoming. I took her on a walk, and she accused me of being engaged to her nephew ,and when I denied, she made me promise not to marry him. I was in shock. For her to visit unexpectedly, insult my mother and my home, and then insult me in every form was inexcusable. As much as I would have liked to yell at her, I kept my voice down; however, I refused to give into any threat she threw at me. I kept this all from my family when she left. One thing that worries me though is that Lady Catherine will certainly speak to Darcy and try to persuade him. Unlike me, I feel he will obey her because his reputation may be far greater than myself.

Jane is Engaged!

Bingley proposed to my dear Jane! I walked in the two during the proposal, and Bingley went straight away to ask for my father's permission. I have never seen Jane (or my mother) so happy. Her face radiates her love and affection for Bingley. I am overjoyed for her and could not have asked for a better brother-in-law. I only wonder now if his best friend knows of his decision.

My mother's tricks

Bingley has come more often to see my family, but it is obvious he only wants to see Jane. Jane has tried to be brave and ignorant of her feelings towards him. My mother has yet again made a fool of herself trying to rid the room of us to leave Bingley and Jane alone. She will not let up. Although, I won't let Jane be alone with Bingley because I am not sure her romantic feelings have vanished.

Darcy's Weird Actions

Today, Darcy and Bingley came to visit my family. I wanted to tell Darcy of my gratitude; however, Darcy was quiet and rarely spoke or looked at me. Why did he come with Bingley if he was just going to sit and be taciturn? If I wanted one person to be silent, I wished it was my mother! How overcome with embarrassment I was as she acted so coldly towards him. I wish my family knew all the good he did for them.

Mr. Darcy's Secret

I must share this news that my aunt has shared with me. Darcy has helped and initiated the marriage between Wickham and Lydia! Why would Darcy feel the need to do this? It certainly was not his problem, yet he went out of his way and helped my family. I can not help feeling he did this for me. Is is possible he still has feelings for me?

My Realization

With the fears of Lydia gone, my thoughts meander to Darcy. Darcy, who I now understand his true character and have grown to love him. But the shame Lydia brought onto my family would have demolished any other feelings he had of me. Darcy would not want a connection with my family after this; he would be humiliated. this goes to say that Lydia ruined any future for myself and Darcy.

Lydia's to be Married

I can not express how relieved I am to hear that Wickham is to marry Lydia. This lifts weight off my entire family's shoulders. My mother, of course, is the most ecstatic already trying to figure out what Lydia will wear. I have to say though that this marriage will be complicated and have no happy ending. I feel Wickham does not share the same amount of feelings my sister has for him. Although, the marriage does save my family from further disgrace.